WHAT WAS, IS NOT

"CHANGE IS A MEASURE OF TIME AND,

IN THE AUTUMN, TIME SEEMS SPEEDED UP.

WHAT WAS IS NOT AND NEVER AGAIN WILL BE,

WHAT IS IS CHANGE."

~EDWIN TEALE

I THANK YOU FOR YOUR KIND WORDS, BEAUTIFUL



CARDS, AND THE SWEET GIFTS. THEY MEAN A LOT TO ME



MY HUSBAND AND MY MOTHER HAVE RECEIVED MUCH



JOY READING YOUR CARDS.



IT IS VERY COMFORTING TO KNOW THAT PEOPLE ARE PRAYING



FOR YOU .



I KNOW MY DAUGHTER, AMY DAWN, IS IN THE SAFE ARMS



OF OUR JESUS AND I REJOICE....BUT FOR 33 YEARS OF MY LIFE



I HUGGED MY DAUGHTER ON THANKSGIVING DAY. I WATCHED HER FIX HER



DELICIOUS CRAB SALAD TO TAKE TO GRANNY'S HOUSE, AND I WATCHED



HER LAUGH AND TALK AND THIS YEAR...THIS THANKSGIVING.... MY HUSBAND



AND I WILL VISIT OUR DAUGHTER'S GRAVE AND TRY TO EMBRACE THE



WIND, WHERE JUST ONCE MORE WE MIGHT CATCH A FAINT SMELL OF HER.



THERE ARE NO WORDS THAT MAKE IT BETTER...THERE IS NO PAIN PILL



THAT WILL DULL THE PAIN, AND NO ANTI-ANXIETY PILL THAT WILL STOP



THE PANIC ATTACKS THAT CAUSE YOUR HEART TO HAVE PVC'S.



PRAYING TO JESUS IS HARD SOMETIMES...NOT BECAUSE I AM MAD AT



HIM....I LOVE HIM MORE THAN EVER....BUT I HAVE NO WORDS. RICHARD,



MY DH AND I PLAY A LOT OF CHRISTIAN MUSIC.



I SAW THE SOUL OF MY DAUGHTER LEAVE HER BODY AND HER BODY JUST BECAME



A WAXY SHELL......AND SEEING IT, MAKING FUNERAL ARRANGEMENTS,



PURCHASING HER PLOT TO REST IN, AND THE FUNERAL....WATCHING THEM



SEAL HER VAULT...........I STILL FIND IT DIFFICULT TO BELIEVE SHE IS GONE.



WHAT IS, IS NOT.



WHAT WAS, CAN BE NO MORE...AND IT HURTS SO BAD.



LET US REMEMBER THE FOLLOWING IN PRAYER...........


PASTOR MARNEY, AUNT JEAN, ASHLEY, ANDREW, KERRIE AND BILL, IRENE,

OUR TROOPS AS THEY SERVE TO KEEP OUR COUNTRY FREE, BECCA, TAWNA,

MIKE, DORIS AND RICHARD, PAM, PATRICIA, ROY AND ELISABETH,

SALLY, CAROL, MILT, HEALING IN FORT HOOD OVER 11/05/09,

ANASTASIA, DONNA, ALL THOSE WHO ARE HURTING THIS HOLIDAY SEASON

OVER THE LOST OF A LOVED ONE


DEAR HEAVENLY FATHER,

I THANK YOU LORD FOR LOVING ME AND FOR TAKING AMY HOME, TO BE

WITH YOU WHERE SHE IS PAIN FREE...I KNOW HEAVEN IS A LITTLE

DIFFERENT SINCE SHE GOT BACK HOME BUT OUR LIFE WAS DIFFERENT

AND GLORIOUS FOR 33 YEARS. I PRAY LORD THERE WILL BE HEARTS

HEALED THIS THANKSGIVING HOLIDAY AND MAY THERE BE A REVIVAL

LORD FOR PEOPLE RUSHING BACK FOR YOUR SAVING GRACE. MAY

PEOPLE REALIZE THAT IT IS NOT ABOUT THE MATERIAL BUT TO

BE YOUR HANDS EXTENDED. I THANK YOU LORD FOR BLESSING THE

ANGELS IN MY LIFE. I PRAISE YOU JESUS BECAUSE YOU ARE WORTHY

TO BE PRAISED. PLEASE LORD, REMIND PRECIOUS AMY HOW MUCH HER

DADDY AND I LOVE AND MISS HER.

LET NOT ONE PERSON GO HUNGRY LORD.

AMEN AND AMEN


ANGEL HUGS

IT WAS A BEAUTIFUL SUNSET

THIS IS THE BEAUTIFUL GRAVE MARKER THEY USE UNTIL THE MONUMENT

ARRIVES. I LOVE SEEING HER BEAUTIFUL PICTURE. YOU CAN'T TELL IT

BUT THE PICTURE TO THE LEFT IS A BUTTERFLY.

YOU CAN SURE SEE THE HENNESSEY RED SHELL DIRT. WE ARE GOING TO ADD SOME OF OUR

OWN DIRT AND MAKE THE SOIL RICH. RICHARD, MY DH AND I WERE TO

AMY'S RESTING PLACE TONIGHT. WE RAKED AND TOOK THE OLD CONTAINERS SO WE

CAN MAKE THANKSGIVING ARRANGEMENTS. WE TOOK OUT JUST ONE OF HER SOLAR LIGHT

BUTTERFLIES AND WE WILL SEE HOW THE ONE WORKS. SHE LOVED THEM SO AND

RICHARD WOULD BRING THEM IN AND STICK THEM IN THE COUCH WHICH THEY GLOWED

DIFFERENT COLORS ALL NIGHT LONG. SHE MAY HAVE BEEN 33 YEARS OLD

BUT HER HEART WAS YOUNG AND FULL OF WHIMSY AND THAT IS WHY SHE

LOVED ME TO READ TO HER. IT WAS A SPECIAL TIME FOR US.

THE VAULT WAS SUCH A BEAUTIFUL SURPRISE TO US. IT HAD A GORGEOUS

BUTTERFLY IN AN OVAL FRAME AND THEN A PLAQUE AT THE BOTTOM WITH HER

NAME AND BIRTH YEAR AND GOING HOME YEAR. I KNOW IT IS UNDERGROUND

AND NOBODY WILL EVER SEE IT BUT IT WAS A LOVELY GIFT FOR ANDERSON

BURRIS TO DO....IT IS THEIR WAY OF SHARING WHAT WAS IMPORTANT TO AMY

AND HER LITTLE CASKET WAS FULL OF BEAUTIFUL BUTTERFLIES.

SOME FUNNY THINGS DO OCCUR. MY DARLING 89 YEAR OLD MOTHER IN LOVE

COULD HARDLY CONCENTRATE ON THE FUNERAL BECAUSE SHE THOUGHT THE

CASKET SPRAY COST 1,000.00. FOR SOME REASON THAT CRACKED ME UP.

TO BE AS SMALL AS WE HAD IT MADE, IT HAD 36 LAVENDER FLOWERS PUT IN

AMONG BRIGHT PINK SHASTA DAISIES. I DON'T THINK THERE WERE ANY SHASTA

DAISIES OR BUTTERFLIES LEFT, IN THE TOWN OF ENID.

WE PUT THE QUILT THAT MICHELLE MADE FOR HER WHEN SHE FIRST WENT

TO THE HOSPITAL. http://rosebudquilting.blogspot.com

I THOUGHT AND THOUGHT ABOUT PUTTING THE LITTLE QUILT WITH AMY

BUT CHANGED MY MIND.....SOME TIME, 100 YEARS FROM NOW, MY ONLY SON AND

DAUGHTER IN LOVE MIGHT HAVE CHILDREN AND THOSE GRAND KID'S CLIMBING

AROUND ON AMY'S QUILT WILL BE LIKE THEM CRAWLING OVER AMY, AS IF SHE WAS WITH US.

AMY HAS JOURNEYED HOME TO BE WITH JESUS BUT SHE IS STILL MY ONLY DAUGHTER

WHO I CHERISH, LOVE, ADORE, AND AM HAVING A DIFFICULT TIME LIVING

WITH OUT. I AM TRYING TO DO ALL THE THINGS......LAST SATURDAY RICHARD

TOOK ME TO AMY'S HOUSE. I WAS SO OVERCOME WITH GRIEF, I HAD TO GET

OUT OR PASS OUT.

TEARS.....TEARS.....TEARS.........

TEARS IN FEAR.....

I JUST CAN'T FORGET YOUR FACE BABY GIRL

OR HOW WHEN YOUR TIRED, YOU TWIRL YOUR CURLS

ALWAYS WORRYING ABOUT SOMEBODY ELSE...

WANTING THEIR DAY TO BE BRIGHT

BUT MORE TIMES THAN NOT........

BUT MORE TIMES THAN NOT... YOU WERE LEFT ALONE

CRYING IN THE INVINCIBLY DIM SPOTLIGHT

YOU WERE ORDAINED INTO THE ROYAL FAMILY JULY 1995

SO EVEN THOUGH YOU ARE NOUGHT HERE WITH ME NOW

YOU ARE IN THE PRESENCE OF OUR LORD

WHERE YOUR ART AND DISPLAYS ARE APPRECIATED BY THE KING

JESUS LOOKS FORWARD TO ALWAYS SEEING YOUR SMILE AND THE ANGELS

LOVE IT WHEN YOU HUM A HAPPY AMY TUNE

HOW CAN I EVER BAKE CUPCAKES WITHOUT YOU...THAT WAS YOUR JOB.....

BESIDES YOUR APRON FIT YOUR LITTLE BODY AND I DON'T HAVE A FAT APRON

AMY I AM TRYING TO BE AS BRAVE AS YOU WERE BATTLING THE CANCER

BUT DADDY AND I WERE THERE CHEERING YOU ON..........YOU'RE NOT HERE

I PRAY THAT YOU ARE CHEERING US ON FROM THE GRAND STANDS OF HEAVEN

BECAUSE THIS IS A PRETTY HUGE TASK

I KNOW WE HAD YOU 33 YEARS WHICH SOME HAVE SAID I SHOULD BE THANKFUL

FOR......WE HAVE BATTED FOR YOUR LIFE FOR 33 YEARS....IT HAS NOT ALWAYS

BEEN MEMORIES OF ROSES AND LACE BUT 4 YEARS CHEMO STARTING AT AGE 10 1/2 WHICH WAS ENDLESS VOMITING....152 HOSPITAL ADMISSIONS THE FIRST YEAR....NOT THE DAYS WE STAYED.

WE DIDN'T JUST HAVE 33 PERFECT YEARS AND THEN AMY BECAME ILL.

I THINK NO MATTER HOW LONG YOU HAD YOUR CHILD WHEN GOD COMES TO TAKE THEM

HOME IT IS NEVER ENOUGH TIME. WE ARE NEVER READY TO GIVE THEM UP...WE WOULD ALL

PLEAD FOR ONE MORE DAY.

I WANTED YOU, AMY GIRL TO STAY....I WAS HYPERVENTILATING AS I SAW THOSE QUIET

GASPS LEAVING YOU.....I TRIED TO GET A PULSE AND THERE WAS NO PULSE...YOU WERE BLEEDING FROM YOUR PEG TUBE, TRACH, FOLEY...........I PUT MY HEAD ON YOU AND AS SICK AS YOU WERE, I BEGGED YOU TO COME BACK. I THOUGHT RICHARD AND I WAS GOING TO DIE AND LEILA HAD NEVER BEEN

AROUND A DEAD BODY. SHE DID AMAZINGLY BUT WAS STILL OVERCOME. MY MOTHER

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THE TALL ARRANGEMENT WAS SENT BY BARBARA THE PURPLE GOAT LADY. IT HAD

GORGEOUS TEXAS BLUE BELLES. SHE WAS ATTENDING HER FRIENDS FUNERAL WHOSE

HUSBAND DROPPED OVER DEAD VERY UN EXPECTANTLY.


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THANK YOU MY FRIENDS FOR ALL THE CARDS, ENCOURAGING MESSAGES AND JUST A

LISTENING EAR. YOU FIND OUT MANY POSITIVE AND MANY UGLY THINGS WHEN A

LOVED ONE PASSES ON AND THAT WAS THE CASE WITH AMY. I AM SO VERY HAPPY

THAT SHE WAS NOT HERE TO ENDURE IT...IT WOULD HURT HER FEELINGS

IT IS SO VERY SAD WHEN YOU LOOSE A CHILD OF ALL THINGS, AND THEN THE SOOTHE SAYERS

COME TO BARBEQUE YOU. I DON''T CARE ANYMORE BECAUSE I SERVE

THE KING OF KINGS

AND THE LORD OF LORDS.

HE WILL VINDICATE ME, GIVE ME REST,

GIVE ME PROMOTIONS AND BETTER EQUIP ME TO SERVE HIM.........

AND THAT IS WHAT IT IS ALWAYS FOREMOST

"BEING ABOUT THE FATHERS BUSINESS."



I AM TRYING TO GET ON TO A FUN BLOG YOU WILL LOVE TO COME TO BUT RIGHT

NOW IT IS BABY STEPS FOE ME.

I HURT WITH A PAIN I HAVE NEVER HAD BEFORE...IT EASES BUT THEN GRABS YOU

LIKE A HEART ATTACK AND SOMETIMES IT IS SO NUMB AND SILENT YOU WANT TO

SCREAM TO SEE IF YOU ARE IN A NIGHTMARE

OH TO LOSE A CHILD IS TO LEAVE A BIG HOLE IN YOUR HEART

ANGEL HUGS

LOVE

DEBBIE

SO MANY PRAYER REQUESTS: MY AUNT JEAN RECOVERING FROM SURGERY....MY AUNT PATRICIA RECOVERING FROM A BROKEN LEG. ANASTASIA...CANCER, CAROL'S SISTER IS IN ICU,

SHE IS A SERIOUS DIABETIC, SHAUNA, LADY DY, GLORIA......PLEASE PRAY FOR HER GRANDSON'S SQUADRON IN FORT HOOD...HER GRANDSON PRAISE THE LORD IS SAFE BUT THEY LOST MANY OF

THEIR SQUAD...ROY AND ELISABETH,ALSO GLORIA'S HUSBAND LOST HIS PRECIOUS DOG OF 19 YEARS...THAT IS A BROKEN HEART THERE....HE TOOK HIM IN TO RAISE WHEN NO ONE ELSE WOULD.

MIKE AND TAWNA, DORIS AND RICHARD, ANDREW, SHELLY, MONTE, JOHN, AND GLORIA.

BECCA, BECCA AND HER GRAND BABY, AND ANY OTHERS THAT WERE BROUGHT TO MY

ATTENTION THAT I HAVE FORGOTTEN THEM. YOU KNOW WHO THEY ARE LORD AND LORD

HELP ME, RICHARD, RICHIE, AND MEGAN FIND SOME REST.

I THANK YOU LORD FOR HEARING MY REQUEST. WE LOVE YOU LORD AND KNOW THAT YOU ARE MORE THAN ABLE TO DO THAT WHICH YOU SAY.

I LOVE YOU LORD.

HAPPY HALLOWEEN OUR SWEET AMY DAWN

WE, EVEN IN OUR GRIEF, COULD NOT LET THE DAY GET BY OUR SWEET, BEAUTIFUL

DAUGHTER WITHOUT WISHING YOU A HAPPY HALLOWEEN. YOU KNOW I

ALWAYS WISHED YOU A HAPPY HARVEST BUT IN YOUR MEMORY, "HAPPY

HALLOWEEN" BABY GIRL.

IT HAS BEEN 7 1/2 DAYS SINCE YOU LEFT US. DADDY AND I ARE SO VERY

GRIEVED AS WELL AS RICHIE AND MEGAN, LEILA AND KORBI, GRANDMOTHER AND PAPA,

GRANNY AND POPS, UNCLE TEDDY, AUNT NANCY AND UNCLE BOB, AUNT SUSIE AND

UNCLE MILT, AUNT SHERRY AND UNCLE TONY.

ALL YOUR COUSINS, NIECES, AND NEPHEWS MISS YOU VERY MUCH AS WELL

AS OTHER RELATIVES AND FRIENDS.

I LOVE YOU SO VERY MUCH AMY. IT WILL TAKE DAD AND ME A LIFE TIME TO

EVER STOP MISSING YOU.

LOVE AND HUGS AND KISSES

WHAT I WOULDN'T GIVE TO HUG YOU AGAIN.

LOVE YOU

MOTHER AND DAD

XXOOXXOOXXOOXXOO

UPDATE ON MY BELOVED AMY DAWN

I WILL BE BRIEF. THURSDAY AFTERNOON AMY SLIPPED INTO A COMA.

SHE DID SQUEEZE MY HAND, MY MOTHERS' AND HER BFF LEILA'S HAND.

EARLY THURSDAY MORNING SHE WAS WILD WITH PAIN AND KEPT CLAWING

MY ARM AND SAYING, "COME ON!"

I KEPT ASKING, "WHERE ARE WE GOING?"

I KEPT ASKING IF WE WERE GOING TO TAKE A RIDE ON THE MAGICAL

PINK BIKE, ERIN PAINTED FOR US FROM

http://thepaintedgarden.net

SHE KEPT PULLING ALL HER COVERS OFF AND TRYING TO SWING HER

LEGS OUT OF BED. AND BRUISING, MOTTLING STARTED EVERY WHERE.

WE HAVE HAD THE SWEET HOSPICE NURSE AT THE HOUSE A LOT.

HER O2 SATS ARE RUNNING 76 - 85 AND THAT IS VERY LOW FOR

SOMEONE WITH A TRACH. ALL WE CAN DO IS KISS HER, KEEP HER COMFORTABLE,

KEEP HER PAIN FREE, TALK TO HER, AND KEEP CHRISTIAN MUSIC PLAYING

THROUGH THE HOUSE AS WE PRAY AND CRY.

I SAY, NEVER, EVER, EVER GROW WEARY OF DOING AND BEING PRESENT AT

ALL YOUR CHILDREN'S ACTIVITIES, DANCE LESSONS.....I ATTENDED SO MANY SOCCER

PRACTICES AND DRAMA LESSONS WITH RICHIE, I DIDN'T KNOW WHAT TO DO

WHEN HE WENT AWAY TO COLLEGE. I LOVED BEING A MOTHER AND ALL

THE PTA MEETINGS AND PROJECTS.

WE DON'T KNOW WHAT THE FUTURE HOLDS AND OUR LOVED ONES CAN BE GONE

IN THE BLINK OF AN EYE.

PLEASE HUG YOUR LOVED ONES A LITTLE TIGHTER AND TELL THEM HOW

MUCH YOU LOVE THEM. CALL A CHERISHED FRIEND AND MOST OF ALL CALL

UPON THE NAME OF THE LORD.....MAKE SURE YOU ARE RIGHT WITH JESUS, AS

THIS LIFE IS SO TEMPORAL. WE ENTER THIS WORLD WITH NOTHING, HELPLESS

AND CRYING....WE LEAVE THIS WORLD TAKING NO EARTHLY POSSESION'S EXCEPT

ETERNAL LIFE....AND IT IS UP TO US WHERE WE SPEND ETERNAL LIFE.

JOHN 3: 16

I COULD NOT CONTAIN MY GRIEF IF I WAS NOT ASSURED I WILL SEE MY

BELOVED AMY AGAIN, WHEN THE LORD CALLS HER HOME.

THANK YOU FOR YOUR CONTINUED PRAYERS.

TODAY WHEN YOU COMMENT, TELL ME ABOUT THE FUNNIEST THING THAT EVER

HAPPENED TO YOU AND I WILL TELL AMY ALL ABOUT YOUR RESPONSES.

SHE ALWAYS LOVED TO LAUGH. I ALSO SHARED WITH RICHIE THAT YOU

ALL WERE PRAYING FOR HIM. HE IS PHYSICALLY SICK...HIS WIFE GOT SICK FIRST

AND HE CAUGHT IT BUT HIS BODY IS ALL RUN DOWN.

ANGEL HUGS

LOVE

Debbie

AMY'S SPECIAL HALLOWEEN/FALL DECORATED TREE

AS YOU ALL KNOW RECENTLY I WON A GIVE AWAY AT LYNN'S....

http://paintingthymeneedfuls.blogspot.com

BEFORE I ENTERED THE GIVE AWAY I SAW A POST ABOUT HER

PUMPKIN TREE WITH PUMPKINS PAINTED AND CREATED FROM

LIGHT BULBS. THEY WERE NOT PART OF THE GIVE AWAY BUT I

JUST HAD TO TELL LYNN SO MUCH, HOW I LOVED THEM.

WELL TO MAKE AN OLD STORY SHORT, I WON THE BEAUTIFUL

GIVE AWAY AND MUCH TO MY EXCITEMENT SHE SENT ME A

FAMILY OF 5 ADORABLE, CHARMING PUMPKINS. THEY MAKE

ME SMILE EVERY TIME I SEE THEM.

WHEN I POSTED ABOUT THE GIVE AWAY, I TOLD HOW I WAS

GOING TO MAKE A TREE FOR AMY AND SEVERAL OF YOU

PRECIOUS LADIES ASK ME TO TAKE A PICTURE OF THE TREE.

THE PICTURES DID NOT TURN OUT VERY GOOD BUT THE TREE IS

GORGEOUS. WE RECEIVE COMPLIMENTS FROM EVERYONE THAT

COMES TO THE HOUSE.

MY SISTER BOUGHT THE TREE AT A THRIFT SHOP FOR HERSELF

AND WHEN SHE SAW THE GIVE AWAY FROM LYNN SHE GAVE ME

THE TREE SHE HAD PURCHASED. MOTHER LET ME USE HER

LIGHTS FOR THIS SEASON AND DONATED SOME RAFFIA SHE HAD.

SHERRY BOUGHT A FALL LEAF SWAG AT THE DOLLAR STORE.

WE TOOK THE RED RIBBON OFF THE BURLAP SACK AROUND THE

BOTTOM OF THE TREE AND TIED RAFFIA AROUND IT. WE WRAPPED

THE LIGHTS AROUND THE LEAF GARLAND AND THEN MY SWEET DH

WRAPPED IT UP AND AROUND THE TREE. I PUT THE CROWN

ON THE TOP OF THE TREE......THE UNIQUE WITCHES HAT THAT LYNN

MADE....I AM NEVER ONE TO BRAG BUT I MUST SAY, "IT IS AWESOME!"

WE PUT THE 3 FOOT TREE ON MY GLASS COFFEE TABLE. WE HAVE RUN

OUT OF ROOM WITH THE HOSPITAL BED IN THE MIDDLE OF THE

LIVING ROOM. I HAVE A LIVING ROOM/ FORMAL DINING ROOM

COMBINATION AND WE HAVE BOXES OF SUPPLIES, AND STACKS AND

STACKS OF STUFF.

AROUND THE BOTTOM OF THE TREE IS THE AWESOME SIGN LYNN

PAINTED, I'LL GET YOU MY PRETTY...A BOTTLE OF WITCH HAZEL

SHE MADE....2 PUMPKINS MY SISTER SHERRY MADE FROM A VINTAGE

BEDSPREAD...A BASKET WITH ACORNS FROM CHAR AT

http://someplaceinthyme.blogspot.com

A LEAF DISH THAT DOES NOT SHOW UP...A PUMPKIN STRAW FROM

A FRIEND OF AMY'S AND LEILA'S AND ON THE CHAIR BESIDE THE

TREE, A GORGEOUS SCARECROW SENT FROM BARBARA...

http://purplegoatlady.blogspot.com

ON THE LEFT SIDE OF THE TREE IS A SCARECROW MY MOTHER

PURCHASED FOR AMY 3 WEEKS AGO. AND ON THE BEDSIDE TABLE

BEHIND THE TREE IS A BOUQUET OF FLOWERS, THAT LEILA'S

SISTER, SHERRY SENT HER TODAY. THEY ARE SCATTERED

ABOUT WITH GLITTER, SOMETHING I HAVE NOT SEEN BEFORE

AND IT IS JUST GORGEOUS TO LOOK AT. IF YOU LOOK CLOSE IN THE

TREE, YOU WILL SEE A WIZARD OF OZ CARD, THAT CAME FOR AMY

TODAY FROM A FRIEND OF LAURIE'S AT BARGAIN HUNTING.

ALSO IN THE TREE IS A PRETTY HANDMADE PUMPKIN FROM CHAR.

THIS IS OUR PRECIOUS ANDY...SOMETIMES CALLED ANDREW...AND

SOMETIMES CALLED ANDY PANDY BUT ALWAYS LOVED. HE IS OUR

PRECIOUS ANDY THAT WE RAISED FROM 6 DAYS OLD...WE ARE

HIS PARENTS AND NO MATTER WHAT WE DO, HE IS ALWAYS IN THE

MIDDLE OF IT. HE HAS THE SWEETEST LITTLE PERSONALITY.....

AND HE THINKS THE TREE IS JUST FOR HIM AND THE SCARECROW,

BARBARA SENT......HIS NEW BEST FRIEND.

AN UPDATE ON AMY DAWN:

THIS IS AMY WITH HER DOROTHY WIG ON AND THE DRESS LAYED



ACROSS HER, WHERE HER TRACH AND MASS CAN NOT BE SEEN.



SHE WAS SO VERY HAPPY THE DAY MY SISTER SHERRY AND MOTHER



BROUGHT THIS COSTUME. SHE GRINNED FROM EAR TO EAR.



THE BEAUTIFUL PILLOW CASES WERE SENT TO HER WHILE SHE



WAS IN THE HOSPITAL. THEY WERE MADE BY THE BEAUTIFUL



MICHELLE AT:



http://rosebudquilting.blogspot.com



THOSE PILLOW CASES FOLLOWED HER INTO ICU AND SHE ONLY HAS



THEM OFF FOR LAUNDERING. AT THE FOOT OF HER BED YOU CAN



KINDA SEE THE QUILT SHE MADE HER.



THE RED CORD WRAPPED AROUND HER WRIST IS HER MUSTARD



SEED NECKLACE THAT SHE HAS NOT BEEN ABLE TO WEAR



AROUND HER NECK SINCE SHE HAD HER TRACH PLACED.

WE HAVE NOT BEEN ABLE TO WEIGH AMY SINCE SHE BECAME BEDFAST. WE

FIGURE SHE PROBABLY WEIGHS 48 POUNDS. WE ARE AFRAID WHEN WE

REPOSITION HER, WE WILL EITHER BREAK A BONE OR TEAR SKIN.

HER COLLAR BONE WITH SKIN IS ALL YOU SEE FOR SHOULDERS...YOU

CAN PUT YOUR THUMB AND FINGER ON EACH SIDE OF HER COLLAR BONE AND

TOUCH YOUR FINGER TIPS TOGETHER BECAUSE SHE IS JUST SKIN FROM FRONT

TO BACK....YOU JUST CAN'T DESCRIBE IT.

FRIDAY-SUNDAY WAS VERY BAD FOR HER...THE LEFT JAW HAS LIKE COLLASPED IN

AND SO WHEN YOU TRY TO SET HER UP SHE JUST MOANS OUT AND

TRIES TO ARCH HER BACK AND HER EYES ARE WILD, LIKE A DEER CAUGHT

IN HEAD LIGHTS.

SHE HAS EXCHANGED PURSES AND BLACKBERRIES FOR A REMOTE CONTOL,

A MIRROR, HER BED CONTROL...ANYTHING THAT FITS NICELY IN HER

HAND AND SHE CAN MOVE AND WAVE IT AROUND. SHE KNOWS PEOPLE BUT

IS NOT ABLE TO COMMUNICATE EXCEPT ON A VERY BASIC LEVEL...SHE HAS

A HAND MOTION FOR WHEN SHE WANTS A SPONGE TOOTHETTE DIPPED IN

WATER AND SHE KEEPS IT IN HER MOUTH LIKE IT IS A LOLLIPOP.

SHE IS GENERALLY HAPPY AND SMILES READILY. PASTOR MARNEY SAID

IT AMAZES HIM HOW SHE CAN SMILE WITH ALL HER PROBLEMS. SHE HAS

THE MANNERISMS OF SOMEONE WITH SEVERE BRAIN TRAUMA.

RICHIE, AMY'S BROTHER IS QUITE ANGRY. WE HAVE ALL HAD OUR DANCE

WITH ANGER. WE WILL NEVER KNOW WHY SHE MUST SUFFER SO. I DON'T KNOW

WHY SOME PEOPLE DIE INSTANTLY AND SOME SUFFER AND WASTE WHILE IT

RIPS THEIR FAMILY APART WITH GRIEF...BUT I TRUST GOD AND I KNOW THAT

HE NEVER LEAVES US OR FORSAKES US. JESUS KNOWS REJECTION, ISOLATION,

PAIN AND SUFFERING, ALONG WITH HUMILIATION. SINCE EVERY SINGLE

THING IS ABOUT BRINGING GLORY TO OUR FATHER IN HEAVEN, WE DO

NOT KNOW, WHO GOD IS TOUCHING THROUGH THE DETERMINATION OF AMY

TO BEAT CANCER. BUT EVEN AS IT SEEMS THE CANCER IS RAVAGING HER BODY...

AMY IS STILL SMILING AND STILL FIGHTING TO LIVE. I TOLD HER SHE

DESERVES A PURPLE HEART AND HER UNCLE TONY WHO WAS IN THE MARINES,

THINKS SHE DESERVES A PURPLE HEART ALSO.

SATURDAY MY SWEET BIL, BOB, DROVE MY MIL, IRENE, AND MY FIL, AJ, OVER

FROM TULSA TO VISIT. AMY HAS LOST AT LEAST 60 POUNDS SINCE THEY SAW THEIR

GRANDDAUGHTER LAST. MY MIL, IRENE IS IN HER 80'S AND IS IN CONSTANT

PAIN. IT TOOK A MIRACLE FOR HER TO BE ABLE TO COME.

SHE IS A SURVIVOR OF BREAST CANCER, AND LUNG CANCER. SHE FELL AND

BROKE HER SHOULDER JOINT OFF....WENT THROUGH SURGERY...SHE HAS SEVERE

ARTHRITIS AND SHE IS EITHER CRYING IN PAIN OR TAKING MEDICINE THAT

MAKES HER SLEEP ALL THE TIME.

WE KEPT A TOWEL OVER AMY'S MASS AND TRACH. WE TRIED TO DISCOURAGE

THEM FROM COMING BECAUSE OF THEIR HEALTH BUT THEY FELT THEY SHOULD.

AMY KNEW THEM AND GRANDMOTHER BROUGHT HER NUMEROUS STUFFED

ANIMALS.

I TELL YOU MY FRIENDS, THIS IS A VERY DIFFICULT ROAD. SOME DAYS

THERE ARE BOULDERS THAT JUST SEEM IMPOSSIBLE TO GET OVER BUT

THE WORD OF GOD IS ALIVE AND IF YOU CRY ENOUGH TEARS YOU WILL JUST

FLOAT OVER THE BOULDERS...LOL..BUT IT WORKS WHILE CLEANSING THE PORES

OF YOUR SKIN.

SO MANY PEOPLE ARE IN NEED OF PRAYER...AMY, LEILA AND KORBIE, BILL AND

KERRIE, ROY AND ELISABETH, CEEKAY, DEANNA, SALLY, WILL AND CASS,

IRENE, MRS. MARNEY'S SURGERY, BECCA, DORIS AND RICHARD, TAWNA AND

MIKE, JAMIE, ANDREW, TAMMY, JENNIFER AND THE LOSS OF HER PRECIOUS CAT,

DENNETTE'S SON, LADY PENNIWIG'S JOB INTERVIEW, MEGAN AND RICHIE, BRANDON,

ERIC, ROBBI AND JEFF, REBECCA AND HER DAD, AUNT JEAN AND UNCLE BILLY,

PATRICIA, KIPPEY, KIMBERT, BOBBY, MADONNA, DONNA, CLIFFORD

+++++++++++++

THE GREATEST THING WE CAN DO FOR SOMEONE IS TO PRAY FOR THEM.

I KNOW IT IS YOUR PRAYERS THAT HAVE KEPT ME SANE AND AMY A LIVE.

WE EACH MUST DECIDE FOR OUR SELVES WHAT QUALITY OF LIFE MEANS TO US.

IF AMY IS LIVING IN THE QUALITY OF LIFE, I BEG DEAR LORD TO

NEVER EXPERIENCE THAT KIND OF QUALITY BUT THEN WHO ARE WE TO SAY.

IT WAS DECIDED WHEN WE WERE BEING KNITTED IN OUR MOTHER'S WOMB

THE DAY WE WOULD BE BORN AND THE DAY WE WOULD DIE....AND WE ARE

TO GIVE THANKS TO THE FATHER FOR EVERY DAY...EVERY MINUTE AND

EVERY SECOND.

+++++++++++++++

O LORD, IF YOU HEAL ME, I WILL

BE TRULY HEALED; IF YOU SAVE

ME, I WILL BE TRULY SAVED.

MY PRAISES ARE FOR YOU ALONE!

~JEREMIAH 17:14

FOR YOU WHO FEAR MY NAME,

THE SUN OF RIGHTEOUSNESS

WILL RISE WITH HEALING IN HIS

WINGS. AND YOU WILL GO FREE,

LEAPING WITH JOY LIKE CALVES

LET OUT TO PASTURE.

~MALACHI 4:2

ANGEL HUGS TO EACH ONE OF YOU

I MET A MAN WITHOUT LIMBS

I SAW A SHOW WITH THE MOST AWESOME MAN.

26 YEAR OLD NICK VUJICIC.

HIS WEB SITE IS: http://www.lifewithoutlimbs.org/

IF YOU ARE EVER FEELING DOWN AND HOPELESS AND FEEL GOD

HAS DESERTED YOU AND YOU HAVE NO PURPOSE IN LIFE, DROP BY

NICK'S WEBSITE AND READ HIS TESTIMONY.

HE IS THE SON OF A PREACHER AND HIS PARENTS MOURNED AND

GRIEVED THE DAY HE WAS BORN. THEY, INCLUDING THE DOCTORS, FELT

THEIR NEW BORN BABY WAS FRAGILE AND MIGHT NOT LIVE VERY LONG.

WRONG!!!!!

HE WAS A HEALTHY BABY BOY WITHOUT LIMBS AND WHAT HE SAID IS

A CHICKEN BONE THAT HE USES AS A FOOT.

FACED WITH COUNTLESS CHALLENGES AND OBSTACLES, HE NOW HAS

FOUND HIS PURPOSE THROUGH JESUS CHRIST AND HAS TRAVELED TO

OVER 19 NATIONS SHARING HIS TESTIMONY.

I ALWAYS UPSET SOME PEOPLE WHEN I SAY THAT OUR PURPOSE IS TO

BRING GLORY TO OUR HEAVENLY FATHER, WINNING SOULS FOR THE

KINGDOM.

NICK FOUND HIS PURPOSE AT THE AGE OF 12 YEARS OLD, WHEN HE

GAVE HIS HEART TO JESUS AND ALL THE REJECTION HE FELT FROM

BEING BULLIED BY HIS PEERS WAS EXCHANGED FOR THE PEACE OF GOD.

HOW AMAZING TO EXPERIENCE GOD'S PERFECT PEACE IN ANY SITUATION.

"CONSIDER IT PURE JOY, MY BROTHERS, WHENEVER YOU FACE TRIALS

OF MANY KINDS."

~JAMES 1:2

CONSIDER IT PURE JOY......THE JOY OF THE LORD IS OUR STRENGTH...A MERRY

HEART DOETH GOOD LIKE A MEDICINE....JOY...JOY

IF THE devil CAN steal YOUR JOY he HAS ROBBED YOU OF AN ESSENTIAL

NUTRIENT THAT KEEPS YOUR HEART BEATING. THE devil COMES TO

STEAL, KILL, AND DESTROY YOUR MARRIAGE...YOUR DREAMS...YOUR HOPE...

YOUR CHILDREN...YOUR HOME...YOU NAME IT AND he WILL ROB YOU OF IT.

EVERYONE WANTS TO BLAME GOD...IT IS HIS FAULT...IT IS NOT GOD'S FAULT.

IT IS APPOINTED ONCE THAT WE WILL "ALL" DIE...EVERY HAIR ON OUR

HEAD IS NUMBERED.

JESUS IS THE SAME AS HE WAS YESTERDAY AND WILL BE TOMORROW.

HE WILL NEVER LEAVE US OR FORSAKE US.

"HOW PRECIOUS TO ME ARE YOUR THOUGHTS, O GOD! HOW VAST IS THE

SUM OF THEM! WERE I TO COUNT THEM, THEY WOULD OUTNUMBER

THE GRAINS OF SAND!"

~PSALM 139: 17-18

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I THINK THAT OUR TRIALS, OUR HURTS, OUR GRIEF.......ALL UNITE TO MAKE US

STRONGER AND MORE DEPENDENT ON THE LORD... TO DESIRE THE PRESENCE OF

THE HOLY SPIRIT AND STRIVE TO BE MORE LIKE JESUS

THAN WE EVER DID BEFORE.............AND THAT IS OUR PURPOSE...

TO BE AN INSPIRATION TO OTHERS...

TO ENCOURAGE OTHERS WHEN THEIR TIME COMES TO WALK THAT ROMAN

ROAD THAT JESUS WALKED. THE ROMAN ROAD THAT JESUS CARRIED

ME DOWN WHEN I THOUGHT I COULD NOT MAKE IT ANOTHER STEP.

JESUS...JESUS...I LOVE YOU SO

THANK YOU LORD FOR BEING THERE

WHEN MY HEART COULD NOT UTTER A SOUND

JESUS...JESUS...I LOVE YOU SO

THANK YOU LORD FOR HELPING ME REMEMBER

IT IS IN YOU LORD, MY PEACE AND SALVATION IS FOUND

JESUS...JESUS...I LOVE YOU SO

WHATEVER YOUR TRADEGY WAS/IS WILL BECOME VICTORY WHEN YOU REACH

OUT TO HELP SOMEONE ELSE.

JESUS WAS ALWAYS BUSY, DOING THE WORK OF HIS FATHER.

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AN UPDATE ON AMY........

LAST NIGHT WAS VERY STRANGE....A DEAR FRIEND SUGGESTED I SING ON

THE WINGS OF A SNOW WHITE DOVE TO AMY AND SO I DID.

SHE BEGAN TO LAUGH AND LAUGH....THEN I LAUGHED AND TOLD HER,

"SHE LOOKED LIKE THE CAT THAT ATE THE CANARY". HER EYES WERE NOT

WITH ME AND SHE KEPT TRYING TO SCOOT OUT THE FOOT OF THE BED.....

BUT SHE CONTINUED TO LAUGH LIKE SHE HAD A SECRET.

IF A STRANGER WOULD HAVE COME IN THEY WOULD HAVE THOUGHT WE

WERE DRUNK....AMY AND I DO NOT DRINK.....WE WERE DRUNK IN THE JOY

OF THE HOLY GHOST.

THIS MORNING SHE IS VERY GUARDED.....I HAVE HAD TO SUCTION HER

TRACH VERY FREQUENTLY. SHE IS ANXIOUS...SHE PATS MY ARM AND SHE

IS VERY ASHEN. I TOLD HER WHAT DAY IT WAS AND SHE GAVE A

LOOK OF SURPRISE. IT IS EASY TO LOOSE TRACT WHEN YOU ARE NOT

OUT AND ABOUT.

SHE IS SO THIN.

MY SISTER JUST CALLED AND THEY FOUND AMY A DOROTHY OUTFIT FOR

HALLOWEEN....A CHILD'S SIZE 8-10. SHE IS JUST A LITTLE

SKELETON IN BODY.

I HAVE FOUND PEACE....GOD'S PEACE AND IT WILL ALL BE OKAY BECAUSE

I TRUST GOD AS MUCH AS I EVER HAVE. I CANNOT IMAGINE A LIFE

WITHOUT MY BELOVED AMY BUT SHE WILL FLY HOME FREE WHEN GOD

CALLS HER AND NOT A MINUTE BEFORE THEN........UNTIL THEN, WE WILL

ENJOY EVERY SECOND BOTH SAD AND HAPPY....AT LEAST AMY'S DOROTHY

COSTUME WILL HANG WHERE SHE CAN SEE IT AND IT WILL BE A SYMBOL

THAT WE ARE STILL FIGHTING WITH HER FOR A MIRACLE.

ANGEL HUGS

LOVE

Debbie

MY SISTER AND MOTHER BROUGHT AMY HER COSTUME. I PUT THE

DOROTHY WIG ON HER AND WE LAYED THE DRESS ACROSS HER, HIDING

HER TRACH AND MASS. FOR JUST A MOMENT ALL WAS RIGHT WITH THE WORLD.

AMY DREW HER LEGS UP AND TOOK HER SHOES OFF AND CLICKED THE

HEELS TOGETHER THREE TIMES....YOU COULD SEE HER LITTLE MOUTH

MOVING 3 TIMES AS SHE COUNTED...............AND SHERRY SAID,

"THAT'S RIGHT AMY, THERE IS NO PLACE LIKE HOME."

WE ALL LAUGHED, INCLUDING LEILA, THAT THIS IS THE FIRST YEAR

THAT AMY IS READY FOR HALLOWEEN BEFORE ANY ONE ELSE.

THANK YOU SWEET SHERRY AND MOTHER. YOU BROUGHT SUCH JOY

TO AMY AND ME.

AMY DAWN, MY BUTTERFLY

THIS IS A PICTURE OF AMY WITH DR. DEXEUS LAST HALLOWEEN, 2008.

IT WAS A VERY HAPPY TIME FOR HER, PASSING OUT BAGS OF CANDY

THAT WE HAD MADE FOR ALL THE STAFF. 30 MINUTES LATER SHE

HAD A FEVER AND WAS RECEIVING IV ANTIBIOTICS.

AMY IS VERY CRITICAL AS I TYPE THIS. SHE IS IN PAIN EVERY WHERE

AND FOR THE FIRST TIME, WE HAVE TO POSITION HER AND SHE CRIES

OUT IN PAIN. I SHOULD SAY IT IS THE FIRST TIME SHE WILL

ALLOW US TO POSITION HER.

MY HEART IS SO FULL OF PAIN AS I TELL YOU WITHOUT AN

INSTANT MIRACLE, OUR AMY IS ABOUT TO FLY FREE.

I WANTED TO THANK ALL OF YOU WHO HAVE BEEN SO VERY

KIND TO HAVE MADE HER LAUGH AND SMILE THROUGH THE

BEAUTIFUL CARDS AND GIFTS YOU HAVE SENT.

YOUR KINDNESS WILL NEVER GO UNNOTICED AND YOU WILL

BE REMEMBERED FOREVER BY THIS FAMILY, ESPECIALLY ME.

WHAT DO I WANT YOU TO KNOW:

1. AMY IS MY ONLY DAUGHTER AND SHE HAS BROUGHT ME, HER

DAD, AND HER ONLY BROTHER SUCH GREAT JOY, AS WELL AS

HER GRANDPARENTS. SHE WAS THE FIRST GRANDCHILD ON THE RAGAN

SIDE AND BOY WAS SHE SPOILED.

2. SHE HAS TAUGHT US HOW TO BE BRAVE AND NEVER, EVER GIVE

UP THE FIGHT...SHE LOVES LIFE

3. TO STAND FIRM IN WHAT YOU BELIEVE AND SOMETIMES BEING

STUBBORN IS A GOOD THING

4. SHE IS A BEAUTIFUL ARTIST

5. THAT HER HEART IS AS BIG AS ALL OF TEXAS AND OKLAHOMA

TOGETHER

6. SHE LOVES ANIMALS ESPECIALLY DOGS AND CATS

7. SHE IS A CHRISTIAN....THAT SHOULD BE ON THE TOP

OF THE LIST

8. SHE WAS DUE TO BE BORN ON MAY 27, 1976 AND WAS TAKEN

BY EMERGENCY C-SECTION ON 7/6/76........OH THAT IS RIGHT

ALMOST 2 MONTHS OVERDUE....SHE WAS IN TROUBLE AND

WE ALMOST LOST HER AT BIRTH.......SHE HAS KEPT US

WAITING EVER SINCE.....(THE CANCER RESEARCH TEAM MADE

NOTE OF THAT FACT WHEN SHE WAS DIAGNOSED WITH CANCER

AS A CHILD...IF A CHILD DIAGNOSED WITH RHABDOMYOSARCOMA

WAS ALSO A BABY THAT WAS OVERDUE)

9. FRIENDS AND FAMILY ARE VERY IMPORTANT TO HER

10. SHE COLLECTS BARBIE DOLLS AND HAS OVER 350, AND

ONLY ONE OF THEM HAS EVER BEEN OUT OF THE BOX

11. SHE IS A LOYAL FRIEND WHO IS ALWAYS THERE FOR YOU

12. SHE HAS LOTS OF FRIENDS BUT ONLY ONE BEST FRIEND,

NAMED LEILA, WHO ALSO HAD CANCER

13. SHE LOVES HALLOWEEN AND IT IS ALWAYS A BIG DEAL

FOR WHAT SHE IS GOING TO BE EVERY YEAR....MY CLOSET IS

FULL OF HER COSTUMES....NOT THE CLOSET AT HER HOUSE

BUT MY HOUSE. SHE PLANS TO BE DOROTHY OF THE

WIZARD OF OZ THIS YEAR

I AM REALLY JUST WASTING TIME...I SET AT HER BEDSIDE AND

THEN I BECOME SO OVERCOME WITH GRIEF I HAVE TO COME

TYPE IT OUT....I HAVE TO GET THE GRIEF OUT SO I CAN GO BACK

AND SMILE. THE WAY WE LOOK AT EACH OTHER, WE DON'T HAVE

TO SPEAK. AMY KNOWS SHE IS SO SICK.

PLEASE PRAY FOR US ALL.

ANGEL HUGS

LOVE

Debbie